Hi everyone.
Today is March 7, 2010, almost one month from stepping back here. I really needed this break from everything. As I explained before, I just got out of a looong relationship and with the help of school, work, a new hobby and new friends and activities in my life, it’s been hard to keep thinking of this place. Nevertheless, there’s nothing that can make you think clearer than time. I love Negality, and I as long as I have a wish to write and show you what I like I will continue in it, dammit! =)
This is the first day in which I don’t only “think” that I’m ok. Nope. Today I “know” that I am ok. That I will be ok. I have newfound courage… wow, Im such a nerd when I talk like that!
Before going into anything, thanks a lot for not letting the site die. When I stepped out of it, I stopped checking everything (emails, hits, link requests) in order to really check how much I wanted it back. Now that I did, I am astounded at the amount of hits the site continued to have. And to the worried emails, thank you too. You guys really are the reason why this site even exists. I thank you so much for being worth 2 seconds in your life.
Ok, then: First, the past. This last month has been refreshing. I have been doing stuff that I had never ever done before, really going out there to limits that used to scare or that I even used to criticize. I spend more time with my friends of school now. They are incredible people that I regret not trying to spend more time with before. I have also started to drive more around the city, something I neglected often even if I have owned a car for almost 2 years. I have practically seen no one from the cosplay scene, and that was also refreshing. Have not sewn or glued or bought or worked in any cosplay. I didn’t go to Otakufest, of course. This last month I really got into playing bass guitar (or as I joke to my teacher, trying to operate something in the least similar to using an instrument in a way akin to playing). I’ve only had like four classes, but I’m really into it and trying my best. To me it’s like a frustrated dream (originally I wanted to play violin) to study music, so I’m trying to enjoy every minute of it even though it’s so hard. I’m too old for it! Luckily, my teacher is very knowledgeable, strict-but-caring and pro. So there is that.
I also chopped my hair. This is clear indication of a turnpoint in my life. Every time I have cut my hair a different way, it's because Im trying to leave an old person behind. I went from long bangless to stylish bob to framing long hair and now I'm flouncy layered. I think it looks cool but I have received contrasting opinions o.oU
I haven’t baked as much as I used to, but I don’t get to be in the kitchen that much anymore. I have tons of ingredients that haven’t been used and I have my eyes on a couple of sophisticated pans from Liverpool… Mmmm. Ok, that has nothing to do with right now XD
As for what is coming, well the first thing is to finally finish this damn layout. I like it so much and it has too much tweaking to undergo. I want to make the buttons all the same font. To make up for the month gone I’m trying to make some updates to it. Im sad to admit Zatsune pictures probably will never happen, so I just resigned myself to uploading the cosplay that way and if something good happens then great, I’ll upload more pics. If it doesn’t well, then at least it’s there. Two prizes were missing and they are now added and I finally got around to changing the cosplay icons. The next tentative event is 36CJMC. Oh yes, baby, I’m going. I don’t know if I’m cosplaying but I honestly want to go. If I do go then I will be taking what I was planning for November. Enough with the hiatus!
Ok, so I don’t know if I’m making up for the absence. Probably not… but I will.
Thanks everyone!
And everyone who stood beside me when I felt less like myself.